i'll blog more when im free.
im currently as bz as a bee
=)

someone kidnapped me in their car and drove me to a town across the bridge on saturday
a beautiful beautiful place
been shopping and eating
enjoying nature at the beach and gardens
going to docklands as much as i can

went for river cruise
experienced the sunday "markets" in melbourne
etc...
go out this time in the morning.get back midnight.
;P

its like "summer"
and yes i got a sun tan
look forward to see a new version of me k
the hangus version
i may be crispy too!

random thoughts during the exam

1. It doesn't matter how much time you have lost/wasted
all that matters now is how much time you've got
that, you are in control of

2. How i wish today never ended
and tomorrow never began
i want to stop time

3. Some people breeze through university
others struggle like hell

4. Gap years are good for you
only, they make you feel dumb
after
(coming from a person who had 2 gap years!)

5. i spent my whole day drawing arrows that move around weird looking molecules
life ought to be more than organic chemistry

6. in my lil ideal world
everything is perfect
everything is 100%
i love my lil ideal world
i hate reality

7. next week.this time.id be a free person
29/10/2009

8. i realise its not so much of where im studying
but the condition of my heart
i can be as productive in my room as i am at the library
its just
my heart is never in the mood to study when im in my room

9. they say MCQ questions are suppose to be easy
its common sense
well, kindly consider people who lack common sense

10. i left my ID at home today (3/11/2009)
i only realised when i was on the tram to caufield.
i got down the next stop and ran all the way home to get it
on days like these i thank God im a 100m sprinter
i still got to the exam on time.
*phew*

11. having your papers in a week is like having a quick and fast death.

12. pharmacy exams are not for the faint at heart.

13. i've been sleep deprived.give it back to me!

14. in every exam
there would be those impossible questions
i often ask myself
which nerd on earth could have possible reproduced that slide???????

15. during the exam period
i often dream of people i don't usually think about
* my sponsor
- i could almost hear the audible voice saying " we want you to get a 1st class honours.."
* my gurantor
-id imagine them digging every cent left they have in their bank account.because i failed.
* my lecturers
-i don't see them as they are in real life.they look like monsters in my dream.weird looking.long ears.3 eyes.green skin.sinister laugh.i hear them say " you couldn't answer that question could you.." nyek nyek nyek..
don't get me wrong.my lecturers are pretty nice people in real life
maybe these are not dreams. they are nightmares...

16. if only i didn't have to study
id be free
id be alive
id have a life

its probably obvious that this head of mine thinks of weird things during the exams.
im happy its all gonna come to an end.


motivation is not the same things as enthusiasm
when you have no enthusiasm
when you are discouraged
when things look bleakest
and you STILL take action towards your goal
that
is motivation

confessions of a kampung girl

i'm ready
i'm ready to go home

i'm ready to climb rambutan tress
catch fish in the longkang
play badminton on the roadside
eat vegetables planted in my backyard
see frogs in my garden
cycle to the beach for sunrise
lie on the sand and do nothing for the whole day
go to the smelly zoo to play swing & slide
jog at gelora
climb pelindung

i can't wait
to wear my most sampat baju
go to pasar malam and blend in with all the aunty

i want to see movies for RM 5
eat keropok for RM 1
drink ice kacang by the roadside
i want fresh air
familar places and faces

i've seen the city
i've broaden my horizons
i've met people
and grown

but all i want now is to go home
i want to be free
i want to be me

defense mechanism

1. repression
-memories that are too frightening or painful are excluded from conscious awareness

2. rationalization
-when the fox in Aesop's fable rejected the grapes that he could not reach
because they were sour
a) eases our dissapointments when we fail to reach a goal "i didn't want it anyway"
b) gives us acceptable motives for our behaviour

3. reaction formation
-concealing a motive from ourselves by giving strong expression to the opposite motive
A mother who feels guilty about not wanting her child may become overindulgent and overprotective in order to assure the child of her love and assure herself that she is a good mother

4. projection
-assigning our own undesirable qualities to others in exagerated amounts
If you are convinced that the people around you are cruel or unkind, your harsh treatment of them is not based on your bad qualities.you are simply giving thm what they deserve.
If you can assure yourself that everybody else cheats in college examinations.you unacknowledge tendency to take some academic shortcuts seems not so bad

5. intellectuatlization
-attempt to gain detachment from a stressful situation by dealing with it in abstract intellectual terms
necessary for people who deal with life and death matters in their job
a doctor who is continually confronted with human suffering cannot afford to become emotionally involved with each patient
in fact, a certain amount of detachment is essential for the doctor to function competently.

6. denial
-refusal to acknowlege that the undesired reality exist
the parents of a terminally ill child may refuse to admit that anything is seriously wrong even thought they are fully informed of the diagnosis and the expected outcome
because they cannot tolerate the pain that acknowledging reality would produce
they resort to denial
sometimes denying facts may be easier than facing them

7. displacement
-directing a motive that cannot be gratified in one form into another channel
the basic drives cannot be changed, but we can change the object towards which the drive is directed
Erotic impulses that cannot be expressed directly may be expressed indirectly in creative activities such as art,poetry and music.


how many of these can u identify with?

one year's worth

what do i want from mummy and daddy when i get back

1 year's worth of hugs and kisses

i usually get a kiss from dad when i wake up and when i go to bed
2x365=730 kisses

i usually get 8 hugs from mum and 8 hugs from dad a day
16x365=5840 hugs

that's all i want.
that's all i want.

Final leap!

Exam Timetable

29/10 Chemistry of Biomolecules 230pm
2/11 Pharmacy Health and Society II 930am
3/11 Drug Delivery 230pm
6/11 System Physiology 230pm

all papers are 3hours
and stand about 80%
its australia time :P
if its 11am in Malaysia its 2pm here.
pray before and during my paper lorh.not after k. :P haha

appreciate your prayer


tolong doakan kejayaan saya
supaya saya tidak kena tendang balik seberang laut
kena habis studi dulu
terima kasih.

you copycat!

have you ever wished you were someone else?
if only you had her smile,maybe more people would like you
if only you had his biceps
her figure
his voice
her character
his talents
if only...

this is for you

Many social,physical,emotional problems stem from the fact that
People don’t like themselves
They are uncomfortable with how they look, how they walk,how they act
They don’t like their personality
They are always comparing themselves with other people
“if i just had her personality..”
“if i lived where they lived..”
“if i look like she looks..”
“if my thighs weren’t so big..”
“if i had less here and more somewhere else, then id be happy”
NO!
You can be happy with who God made you to be.
And quit wishing you were something different.
If God wanted you to look like anyone else, He would have made you look like them.
If God had wanted you to have a different personality, He would have given you that personality.
Don’t compare yourself with other people.
Learn to be happy with who God made you to be.
God doesn’t want a bunch of clones.He likes variety
You should not let people pressure you or make you feel badly about yourself because you don’t fit their image of who you should be
Be an original,not a copycat
Dare today to be the person God made you to be ad then go out and be the best that you can be.
You don’t have to look or act like anyone else
God has given us all different gifts, talents, personalities ON PURPOSE
You don’t really need anybody else’s approval to do what you know he wants you to do.
Note: not suggesting you are not open to wise counsel.
Be confident. Do not let the outside pressures mold you into something or someone you are not.
Be secure in who you are.
“ i am not going to go around pretending, wishing i were something else, trying to fit into everyone’s mold.i am free to run my own race.”
God went to great lengths to make sure that each of us is an original
We should not feel badly because our personalities, tastes, hobbiesor spiritual proclivities are not the same as another person.
Some people are outgoing and energetic
Others are more timid and laid back
Some people like to wear suits and ties
Others are more comfortable in jeans
Some close their eyes and lift their hands when they worship
Others worship in a more subdued manner
God likes it all!
Don’t think you have to fit into somebody else’s mold and similarly
Don’t be upset when other people don’t fit into your mold
Enjoy the person God made you to be.

Thank you for making me the way i am with ALL my STRENGTHS and WEAKNESSES
Help me enjoy being the person you CREATED